SEE?

can you really see?
do you really see?
or you dont want to see?
hurry the fuck up and choose mo fucka.

have a good day

jump or not to jump?

"don't get too attached to something you love, because it might not love you back." I hope that is not true =[ when i finally found something I adore!
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SENIOR YEAR ALMOST COMING TO AN END!!! OMFG! time to make trouble =]

What happened?

Aren't I the one suppose to be hurting our family, while you stay and watch over us? What the fuck happened to you? You used to be so great and now your just hurting everyone around you. You made her cry and your not even here anymore. What's up with that? Give me a reason what has happened in your life and I will try and understand. But, don't even say that I didn't try when you asked for money I gave you 400$ no matter how much it is, Ill try to get it for you. That's what brothers are for right? But instead of using that money for something productive, what do you do? OH YEA! DRUGS! you can go fuck yourself homie. I don't care how much money I gave you, but dont you get it? We miss you, the old you, not the new you. You made our mom cry, I haven't seen her cry since I made her cry in 6th grade. (im sorry) Didn't you know if you were here right now, we would've all graduated together? Joyce, you and me. But you always had to leave then come back, leave then come back. I kept telling you mang. Dump that wretched witch, coz shes all in for your shit and she's just a bitch. But whatever happens happens, one thing is though. I miss you.


2. Dreams. I'm getting so many lately!? is it a sign? because often i have dreams most of them comes true in a way. Some of my dreams are great, but some are just plain bleh. Hope for the best and cheaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyah =]

-jeric joel mofucking devela

Its not a fairytale

People comes and goes, I hope you'll stay. Trust/Commitment/happiness/teamwork! GO GO POWER RANGERS! K serious time. I am so sorry for everything that has happened and what is happening in this very moment. I'm trying to open up to you and trust you no matter how much work it will be. I do get jealous, I do get sad, I do get worried, and especially I do care. If you don't have those things you aren't human right? But sometimes it's just hard to show feelings for someone you truly care about. No matter how hard or how long it will be I'll try to be there, wait.. it's I'll be there no matter what. I'm trying really hard, and I am sorry if we bump in to speed bumps or stop signs. I chose to be with you and no one else. I don't look at other people like how I look at you. Do you really think others can make me happy? exactly! They can not. If you think they can you are dumb in the membrane. I'll try my hardest to make you happy, but realize that I am just an ordinary dumb boy. Please, Please, Please try your hardest and don't be afraid to bother me or talk to me. I know how I feel and you know it too. BTW didn't your teacher ever tell you if you try hard in the end you will be happy?


ps. YOU SAY IM MEAN? LOOK WTF you DID sheesh. btw fixed my photobucket!

i wanna go deep deep deep!

I grew up, I settled down, my life is going straight! how bout yours?

do watever you like kn33grow

Look what you done to me.
Look what happened to you.
I know what i'm doing and I'm still going strong.
Have you seen yourself? You changed, now your gone, far far away.
I'm living my life
Are you living yours?
I know I miss you sometimes, but not that much.
Your memories are still with me, painful but sad.
Sometimes I wish they were all gone.
I tried to help you, but you deceived me.
I tried so hard, but you drifted so far away.
You deceived you friends, family, and even me.
Now all i say is go fuck your self.
I'm still happy where I am and how I am doing.
are you happy with your life?
No, your life is all jumbled up and disconfigured.
Even though you want to change
YOU CANT.
You CANT.

obama mama

Life is gewd! but i was wondering why we never ask something when life is going so well, but when it isnt were praying and wishing to make it better? I say go out there and make it better yourself, if you want it, go get it simple as that. If you fail at it, then you fail, you cant change the past, but you can make a better future. We don't know whats gonna happen after we die, we wont know if anyone is up there or its just scientifical. But i never really really thought about it till today. I thought i lived my life spontaneously, but surprising to me, its not even worth remembering. I need to have more fun! with friends and family and e=mc2! In the future i want to see,laugh,and learn what i did in the past that was stupid or just darn kewl! My life without the people i care about will be nothing. SO thanks!

great

lifes really great! its breathtaking, adrenaline pumping, and really really fun =D learn something new everday with brothers . watched wanted and angelina jolie is hawwwwwwwwwwwwwwt hahah. anyways i dont know hwat to blog about because i d k

but cantchu see that im trying missay?=] dont doubt or deny because i know im going all out. <-- LOL

R_S_U_L_I_N_S

bonding time with the brothers. Today was a really gewd day. Played Dota =] they all got mad coz im gewd as fuck =]!! HELLLLLLL YA but then 3 hours later went to cue, and frank hid and i was just out side, while they try to look for him. Then he was like lets run and hide! so i ran with him, IT WAS SOO FUN =] everyones all trying to look for us and what not, and then when they see us we run and they chase! full of screams and dodging bullets(people).We ran and hid for 3 hours! and then me and frank sat in the car and we talked bout the E's. I Tell him everything! i know that forsure, but not every everything. I am trying, i mean I am really trying my hardest. Going out of my way just to see you once or just to get a hi!. I never tried tis hard before and its really wierd and complicated to me, because you are so different! I'm never letting go just to let you know! resolution is on its way tho!

Chubby chaser?!

WAHT SAWP WITH THE FACE YOUR MAKING PUNK!!. jk

anyways. WHAT can i SAY im a CHUBBY chaser! point the fact . glad.=]

city lights.

Today was a pretty good day. Debut practice aint hard because i got it all straightened out! its almost here, so prepare! after justin the driver that will kill my life drove me, cindy, melissa, nick, and william. I told him to go to the view,(hillside). They're were all like WOW jayjay! i love you thanks for bringing me here... i know im kewl right? hahah =] but thats my favorite view where you can see every citty to L.A to anaheim, because it has a 360 degrees turnaround. Last time i sat there for five hours just looking at the lights.

then i went home and i put on my pajies and then they said they were comming over. I was like shieeeeeeeeet, im still on my pajamas! but hey it was a cute pajama HAHA

today was great.

k night guys.
ps. you'll like the view trust the bo$$ lol jk
-jeric joel devela.

walking with out nothing

I know both of us could've gave up easy as pie... but no we didn't, and im glad we didn't because you make me smile and be happy even if i say hi or if i just see you for one second. I'm trying my hardest, for me and and for you(if youwant!). I care about you alot and i know i aint ever thinking back or thinking twice about how i feel about you! Your great in every way(you eat too much, You smell,your fat, and you only 5 words!). I know there will be many bumps and stop signs that will TRY to stop us, but i will promise you, ill take you hand and try to move forward and ignore them. I'll tryy my best, but promise me to try your best =D




<3 jeric joeldevela !!
e=mc2
fattie
cutes

here with me

today was fun. woke up like any other day(sleep wake up go back to sleep and count in my head then get up lol) in choir it was pretty chill! still owe 86.50$, freaking aye haha, oh wellz. But then in the end she pulled me aside, saying if i should try out for choir. I looked at her in shock with EYES like these 0.0, because she really meant it. but i said no and then she was like you better man tsk tsk. haha pfft.... then school started went on! school was fun in lunch franks sister and friends came up to me coz they had mexicans following them and shiz. but ya i took care of it! im soo kewl =] HAHA jk.. but then in sixth period i got called up.. and i thought it was for my clothes, but it wasnt. It was for what happened in lunch. That stupid kid said i had a knife and said i was gonnna kill him... He also told them i had to meet him after school! man.. if we did met after school i wouldve asked him to buy me an ice cream, that would be dope. But anyways i was gonna get suspended because i threatened to kill him, but mrs hunnington said i was a good boy=] hehe lifesaver right there. But yea yay =] i saw babah! shes a one fat cutieeeeeeeeeeee! hahah jk no no jk about the jk about the jk... but shes dope=] then i saw the kid again.. and i saw him tlaking to some poeple i know so i went up to them and he started saying sorry and i respect you and shit... man! man up! haha then we went to emilys school to get her hw because she was sick.. and thne life plaza which was boring! then ate stinky nasty tofu.. but i still ate it. then BANIDA ROWLAND HEIGHTS PARK soo funn we stayed there forever soo freaking fun! man. then nicks house which his brother cried alot =[ because we kept killing him in super smash.

haha im the boss btw.. glc said I aint the boss of the school they are=] so that means im almost the boss! lol<<<<<>>>>>


pros.
1.emilys a cutie
2.choir tryout? maybe.
3.Almost the boss!.
4.im kewl
5. No suspension =]
6. rowland heights park.
7.bonding time with the brothers.
8. free chickfilet food=]
9.Funday.
10 im da boss/im kewl =D

cons.
1. almost the boss =[ HAHA!
2.no tattoos today.
3.life was boring.
4. nicks brother crying.
5.almost suspended.
6. my thumb bled.
7. STINK FEREAKING tofu that makes ur breath smells for days. and taste like dookie.
'8. nick left us.
9. almost threw up coz of the spinny winny.
10. man.... haha

brothers!

It feel's good, not going to check ups for blood test, getting dizzy, and not knowing what the fuck im doing. =] But, Thanks God... I really really appreciate that your here with me, even though i can't see you, feel you, or even hear you. I have faith, I really do. I believe that you're up there looking after everyone that needs your help. I can't believe I faded away from you before and how I was losing you from the very start. I'm Sorry for what I am and what I have become. I'm glad that everything has happened because if it didn't i wouldn't have become the person i am now.!


1. Thanks' brother you are great, but gay, but great!!! I know you look out for me and tell me I'm doing something wrong. Yea its pretty kewl and shit.. It was pretty hard for me to get used to too.. but now i know you'll always be there for me no matter what! Don't worry ill be here for you too.

2. WOW yay you said yes!? =] I was scared and everything too AHHA! but yeap I know that I'm stupid and always trying to act dumb! We also always try to change the subject on each other.. BUt i think it's time to grow up and face the truth. Thank you, You made me grow in a way that i know i can face anything i wanted. I'm sorry for letting us fade away, because i was scared. But now im stronger than ever. Thank you

love both of you.

lets make great memories and just live our life to the fullest. Then when we get old we'll all just laugh about our past =D

fears.
1. SPiDERS
2. GROWING OLD.
3.SPIDERS OMFG.
4.Losing someone you love.

the way i am

I Like to Sleep.
I like to eat.(alot)
I'm scared of spiders.
I'm really blind.
I hate olives.
I am a trouble maker.
I talk alot.
I have a brother frank.
I dance anywhere and everywhere i go.
I dont really get sad.
I always smile.
I'm practically always laughing.
I hate to drive.
I dont have road rage.
I say stupid not really funny jokes.(but to me they are funny! what now sons)
I want to but i dont.
I live my life to the fullest.

realize the poing of trust.

I realized now, I was trying to hide from it all along... I'm Bad with commitment,trust, and faith. I am trying to fix the things that i've done wrong, proving to myself that i can correct it by myself. I pulled my self in to a hole where it might be bigger then the earth itself. Will people leave or will people stay? it's not my choice its yours.


love jeric joel devela.

p.s YAY!

oh fine/ 0-9

I know what I did in the past years wasn't so great, but now I finally realize that there's so much more meaning to life =D Family,friends, and my brothers. I would put up My new year's resolutions, but heck do they ever even work? I mean do I even have enough motivation to keep it going? nope i dont think so! I rather just make my self a better person and see how much i improve! =D But thanks to 08" You finally realize what are important and what is not in your life!

You You You, thanks for being there and sticking around! I appreciate the things you do and why your there! I know its hard but i love you lots.
jeric joel devela Smiles.