promises

I don't think I will make it in time. Enuff Said

mind set.

Another bump on the road where the edges are filled with cuts and bruises, where it is too late to ever turn back. But why would I ever turn back? When those cuts and bruises are only a temporary feeling of pain. In reality My life is.. how can I say this. Splendid.

I swear, I wanted to cry. I really did. Did I lose that emotion because of a certain state of mind where I hold a grudge and never ever want to let go. Why would I ever want to let go of it when it made me this strong? It showed me to never give up and to live a life where you are invincible. I felt sick, with full of remorse. Forgiveness is always in my heart no matter how dark and gruesome my heart is. For you I will, forever be in debt.


ps. 4 months =] thanks babee.

grown up?

I didn't know when I grew up or if I was even able to grow up. I was always afraid of growing old. But what was I to be afraid of in the first place? Being older means being wiser, being more sophisticated, and being more mature.... THATS ALL BULLFUCKITY SHIT FOLKS. ALL THIS IS BULLSHIT. It's your life live the way you want it to be. Don't ever act different to anyone because you want to get respected or to think your kewl. All that is a fawkin joke. The memories u will have wont even be the real you and you're wasting your time being some one else than rather being you self. If people doesnt like you, hell with it there are 81u038290389012839081290389012840 people in the world just have fun with it 

im forever in your debt.

Of course, of course. You're a good person in heart and in mind. You thought me things that i didnt know i could learn. The words i said to you I will never ever think about taking it back. Those words were for you and only you. I dont want the things to change now, Those were the past... Lets live our life to the fullest to see the surprises that will happen in the future. FOR ALL THE THINGS YOU THOUGHT ME AND THE EXPERIENCES WE WENT THROUGH TOGETHER., I am forever in your debt. Dont forget about me and always be mah friend =](or atleast try)

- jeric joel mofucking devela =]

gnite

i really hope soon all these misunderstandings go away. They not only make me sad but everyone involved. fejkokafowkgpk. im sorry for all of this. i really am. I Love Kristina and i will give up anything and everything for her. hopefully wednesday we go to Disneyland this time. but hopefully i see her before then. gnite baby. ily!