whats wrong?

truthfully speaking... I am confused and partially lost in my own head, with irritating senses. Battles for once i cant win alone.. What do i need? Who do i need? just to win like i did before? I am asking alot of questions but no one is willing to answer! Where is the light that will show me the way? Before there was a huge bright light telling me what is right to what is wrong. Now that light is dimming away from me, just leaving me in to darkness. Someone guide me, show me , tell me what is going on. Everything goes fucking my way, but how can it go my way when i dont even know what is going on. smiling through aint enough, messing around might destroy what i have, and leaving might be a good decision.

ps. =D hey emily, lets change life, lets change the world. =]

11;11

I'll Make shit Go My Way in desperate needs. Ill wait. Ill wait. For how long, I do not know. If you not with me, ill be mature about it and wait. I'm in no hurry, I'm happy as long as the sun rises up in the sky, where the clouds move in a pace where i can imagine countless things in my head.





step 1 to the impossible

sacrifices.

Everyone makes sacrifices, but this one for me will be a drastic one. Maybe, just maybe, it will go back to normal after this ends. Being honest, I would never be happy about this decision ever. It's worth it if its for good intentions. I will go down hill, while you will go up! Don't trip chocolate chip even if im going down, at least i will go down with a smile. I say trust me, I say believe in me, I say love me like I love you. If i love you this much this will be worth it. Not sprung not a fluke. Its been fun!


ps. =D thanks for being the teacher and the student, thanks for making memories that has great meanings. Thanks for all the care you gave to me. Just keep on smiling =D

Thanks everyone =D

I don't know if I am mature or immature about this situation. You can fix everything if you put your mind to it! I was thinking how you thought for a week, and my mind could'nt handle it. I give you respect for how you can handle thinking realistically, because it is just full of grief and self pity. Now I really know what the meaning of life means. Life can be all about luck, chance, confidence, or pity. It's how you put your mind to work. Seriously, when I told you that you were right about how maybe we can't last, so lets ride for memories, true? N.I.G.G.A Life is not fair, so make it your way. You won't know what will happen till it happens? So control it for you can ride your dreams until your life comes to an end. Sorry but I can make impossible possible. So can you.......

My favorite

song is your heart beat... I want to listen to it all day long.
I'm a blind man, who will suffer in the future! live the ride as long as I can till it washes me to the ocean. In the end what will I have? Nothing, but pure and memorable memories.

There is time for everything

I close my eyes, and make a wish.. while my eyes are close the time stops right before my eyes. Whispering to my ears, you have a great life... enjoy it while it last. With a sudden smile on my face, i admit i do have a great life. Life with joy, life with care, and life with suprises to be unfold.




mean time..

Come..

I tried my hardest to climb Mt. Everest.. When I felt like I'm almost up at the peak of the mountain, I just fall back with a devastating push, that is making me try again, and try again. I know its worth it to try and never give up because you are close as it can get. But can't you understand that I will never ever replace you as anything? Can you please just give it a chance and stay mutual, because thats what i would do for you.

postin

woke up nothing to do, blogging it up, nothing to say.


unique smell of spice, can you dig it?